Mixed Emotions

Over the last year I have learned something very important. You can be sad and happy at the same time. Sad because there is tumor growth, happy because it could be worse. Sad because you miss someone, happy because you have so many people surrounding you with love. Happy because you are having so much fun with your family, sad because you don't know how many times you will hear that laugh. So please, don't think I am a sad person. I cry. A lot. I have a hard thing going on, but I have never been happier in my life. I have never experienced such deep love. I have never appreciated things so much. I have never been so blessed. I am happy... and sad.... and happy.