Tuesday, October 8, 2013


Ummmm, I got nothin. I'm just too tired. Here, hold my cup so it doesn't tip, I'm going to sleep. That would make me happy.

Sunday, October 6, 2013

Mixed Emotions

Over the last year I have learned something very important. You can be sad and happy at the same time. Sad because there is tumor growth, happy because it could be worse. Sad because you miss someone, happy because you have so many people surrounding you with love. Happy because you are having so much fun with your family, sad because you don't know how many times you will hear that laugh. So please, don't think I am a sad person. I cry. A lot. I have a hard thing going on, but I have never been happier in my life. I have never experienced such deep love. I have never appreciated things so much. I have never been so blessed. I am happy... and sad.... and happy.

Friday, October 4, 2013


Today a team of doctors and nurses and social workers made sure that my husband was able to get the medicine he needs without spending $6000.

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

I'm Back and I Brought Fish

So... Things have changed. Timm started school and was working at the same time so he was gone pretty much all day, then we moved, then Timm got cancer. For awhile there I didn't want to work on keeping my cup full, I was angry and sad and my cup kept getting filled and tipped over. Then when I started again I did so verbally with Timm or wrote things down on actual paper, but somebody asked me about this blog tonight so here we go again. We will try. For those of you who do not know, this blog is all about little things. Things that make me smile for a minute. I believe if we can keep watching for those little things we can keep our cups full. Sometimes we even have a big thing. I don't know about this being a daily event this time because of what my world is like now, but I have a place to yell so I should have a place to smile too. Today's little thing.... Fish. A few of my kids and my husband have been asking for fish for years and I just did not want to. Sunday an old friend gave me a fish tank with all the things I needed to get started. Today another friend gave me fish. Now every time I walk into the kitchen I find somebody's nose pressed up against the glass smiling. That makes me smile.