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Ummmm, I got nothin. I'm just too tired. Here, hold my cup so it doesn't tip, I'm going to sleep. That would make me happy.

Mixed Emotions

Over the last year I have learned something very important. You can be sad and happy at the same time. Sad because there is tumor growth, happy because it could be worse. Sad because you miss someone, happy because you have so many people surrounding you with love. Happy because you are having so much fun with your family, sad because you don't know how many times you will hear that laugh. So please, don't think I am a sad person. I cry. A lot. I have a hard thing going on, but I have never been happier in my life. I have never experienced such deep love. I have never appreciated things so much. I have never been so blessed. I am happy... and sad.... and happy.

$75

Today a team of doctors and nurses and social workers made sure that my husband was able to get the medicine he needs without spending $6000.

I'm Back and I Brought Fish

So... Things have changed. Timm started school and was working at the same time so he was gone pretty much all day, then we moved, then Timm got cancer. For awhile there I didn't want to work on keeping my cup full, I was angry and sad and my cup kept getting filled and tipped over. Then when I started again I did so verbally with Timm or wrote things down on actual paper, but somebody asked me about this blog tonight so here we go again. We will try. For those of you who do not know, this blog is all about little things. Things that make me smile for a minute. I believe if we can keep watching for those little things we can keep our cups full. Sometimes we even have a big thing. I don't know about this being a daily event this time because of what my world is like now, but I have a place to yell so I should have a place to smile too. Today's little thing.... Fish. A few of my kids and my husband have been asking for fish for years and I just did not want to. Sunday an old friend gave me a fish tank with all the things I needed to get started. Today another friend gave me fish. Now every time I walk into the kitchen I find somebody's nose pressed up against the glass smiling. That makes me smile.

10

My baby girl ran a 10k today and she made it look easy.

Airplanes and Fireworks

Timm has ruined my boys. Last night as we laid on the ground watching fireworks. As in big colorful explosions above us. My boys kept yelling, "Look! An airplane!" Seriously? Did you maybe notice the fireworks?

Walking

A chubby baby has been using my living room to practice walking. FUN!

Daddy's Girls

Lat night at YW we had a Daddy Daughter night. My girls by far had the most embarrassing dad and they loved every minute of it.

Sleepy Cuddles

The boys laid down in the living room last night so they could watch a late movie then go straight to sleep. Ali came in and sat by Jack for just a few minutes before going to bed. He looked at her with big happy yet sleepy eyes and asked her if she was going to sleep on the couch with him. She smiled and realized that resistance was futile and she may as well get her pillow. Seriously, how can you tell that face no? On other news, as Eli was adjusting his pillow he informed me that he is used to having his head mounted at night. Hmmmmmm. Like a stuffed deer?

Oops

So, a few weeks ago I fell and tore some ligaments in my foot. I was on the couch and in so much pain for a week and a half and my foot was twice as big as normal. After it started feeling better I guess I lost the habit of posting. I will just have to fix that. I will be in this boot for a few more weeks though, so after I found out how long I was going to wear this thing I asked Ali to decorate it for me. She pulled out the paint pens and went after it. My boot is now covered in bubbles with a few cute pictures. I have a cupcake, a rose, a heart and my favorite.... a taco.

Tissue?

I found Jack picking his nose. I asked him if he needed a tissue. When I ask him this he always thinks I want him to blow his nose, so he told me, "That doesn't work on metal boogers."

Busy Busy

I've been busy all day gearing up for Jack's dinosaur party tomorrow. Luckily I have an amazing sister-in-law who sent me a party in a box. Jack is SOOOOOOO excited.

Flowers

Easter Sunday Larry brought me beautiful flowers. They have been in my bedroom making the whole room smell wonderful. They are starting to go, sad.

Eggs

We had 16 kids in the back yard today looking for eggs and candy. They were all adorable and everyone had a good time. Everyone brought food and candy and we were pleasantly surprised that Gabrielle and her family were able to make it on their way to Smithfield. I'm glad everyone was here. There has been an underlying anxiety here waiting for bad news and it was a good break. It's nice when a big family event goes so smoothly.

Dog Farts

A dog totally farted right in Ali's face today. Hehehehehehehe.

Stupid Jack

Jack: How do you spell stupid?

Me: S-T-U-P-I-D

Jack: I hate Stupid Jack.

Me: Who's Stupid Jack?

Jack: He's another one of me..... who's stupid.

Me: Oh, so it's not you?

No: He's like me, but stupid.......

I should kick him in the crotch......

Actually punch him in the crotch......

Ya.

Sun

The sun has finally come back. We came home from school and didn't want to go in the house. So, we played outside for about an hour. Then, we walked over to the school and watched the soccer game. After that we still weren't done having fun so we ran on over to the cheap theater and finally watched Tangled. The scene where she finally goes outside is just what my kids looked like today.

Seriousness

Jack was almost asleep last night when he looked at me and said, "Mommy, can I tell you something?" We then had an interesting little conversation about all the things that are serious to a little guy and not so serious to a mom. Like, how it's not fair that he can't shrink like Micro-Man can. It was a good talk.

Lego Star Wars

Jack set up an area to play Lego Star Wars and stood by the back door waiting for Daddy to come home. He walked in and Jack took him into the front room and handed him an XBox controller. It's pretty funny to sit in this back room and listen to smack talk between a 33 year old and a 4 year old.

The Zoo

I took my family to the zoo today. We saw lots of animals and of course spent a while watching the elephants. We also met up with Gabrielle and her kids. It was all around a great day. All the kids loved it. Jordan got pooped on and the silver back gorilla thought Juliet was amazing. It was so cool, I was holding her and he came up to the glass and got as close as he could to the baby and just stared. It was like he thought SHE was the one on exhibit. I love the zoo.